Discovery: False humility is commonplace in our my culture (Asian). I can't tell you how many times my mom would say to house guests, "Oh dinner didn't require that much effort" (when in reality she slaved away in the kitchen for hours getting things ready). It is also commonplace in the church as well. When someone complements you on a ministry task that is well done the "proper" response is to say something along these lines, "Oh Praise God!" or "I couldn't have done it without Him!" Don't get me wrong, I think humility is a good thing. It's just that true humility is something that is really difficult to understand and grasp. I love this quote by John Ortberg, "We'd like to be humble... but what is no one notices?" This seems to be our dilemma.
If you read this passage, you would think that it has nothing to do with humility. Through this section, Paul defends his apostleship by "boasting" of all the things that he has accomplished or done. Paul readily admits that he is talking like a fool and not as God would (v. 17). Why would Paul debase himself down to the level of his critics and opponents? Paul's boasting was necessary in order for him to answer the most damning accusations of his critics. It was necessary for him to do an "apples to apples" comparison with some of the most damaging statements by his opponents. For example, in v. 22 Paul deals with a few of these comparisons: "Are they Hebrews? So am I? Are they Israelites? So am I. Are they Abraham's descendants? So am I?" Apparently Paul's opponents use the fact that he was not born in Judea (he was from Tarsus which is in modern day Turkey) as a sign that he is less "Jewish" or qualified to speak on spiritual matters. Paul uses this section to dismiss these silly comparisons.
Paul also uses this section to make a clear distinction between himself and his opponents. His critics use comparisons to Paul to tear him down and elevate themselves. Rather than seeing Paul as someone on the "same team," they seek to undermine his authority and try to "steal" away as many sheep as they can from his flock. Paul demonstrates that he is not interested in using comparisons to tear others down or to elevate his own stature or promote his "brand." Paul is not interested in building his own kingdom but rather he is interested in seeing the Kingdom of God go forth to all the places that the gospel has not gone.
Application: I believe that Paul challenges our cultural understandings of what it means to be humble as well as challenges a deeper issue in our heart of wanting to feed our pride. I believe a good working definition of humility is knowing your true worth and repenting of the sin of pride.
Even in Paul's "boasting" it is clear that he is not trying to use it to impress people. Paul knows his true worth. He was a persecutor of church and a sworn enemy of Christ who was saved that day on the road to Damascus. His life and ministry can be summed by this his own word in 1 Timothy 1:15:, "Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners- of whom I am the worst." This is not false humility. Paul meant these words and he backed it up by living it out.
Paul's example here in our passage also challenges our cultural understanding of what humility is all about. Our understanding of humility is often associated with terms such as quiet, passive, unobtrusive, proper, appropriate, and nice. Paul's example here is quite the opposite. It is bold, assertive, confident, defiant, fearless.
I am struck by the fact that Paul really understood his true worth (a sinner saved by God's amazing grace) and the result of this understanding propelled him forward into a life of fearlessness and boldness. You could say that Paul was not living for himself anymore but by humbly understanding his true worth, he began to live his life for Christ. In fact he puts it much better when he says, "I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Song of God, who loved me and gave himself for me." Gal. 2:20
Prayer: Teach me to have this kind of humility. Remind me each day of what you have done for me. Help me begin each day reflecting on how much you have loved me and how far you have taken me from the person I used to be.